FINALLY! For the first time, I’m posting a full journal entry from my homemade, personal version of Journal 3. For background: I’m writing it as a companion to go alongside my AU fanfic Demon Dreams, and the journal entries add to the chapters that are already released (but don’t spoil any future chapters).
So for people who know my fanfic already and read it, you'll especially like this. But for those who haven’t yet- understand this post does contain spoilers for earlier chapters OR read the rest of the fanfic first.
I will be uploading a the pictures of the pages first, and then at the bottom there is also a transcript if you can’t read my handwriting.
WARNING: Contains direct references to some other horror-related media that may be disturbing to readers, if further looked into!
The cover (with my Cipher zodiac symbol) :3
The key above applies to the whole journal btw.
(Very proud of this page. It took forever to make! :D)
(And yes, it’s three-dimensional too! :3)
(I did put the back on with the chains, but it’s just glued to the page this time)
TRANSCRIPT:
A helpful key: [Blue] = unintentional writing mistakes [Black] = UNINTENTIONAL WRITING MISTAKES BY BILL My husband’s completely intentional writing “mistakes.” (He wants to make our journal messier for no reason…) JUST TO MAKE IT KINDA UGLIER! HA HA HA HA! LOL
DEAR DIARY, THIS IS BILL CIPHER! AND IT’S JUST ME WHO’S HERE, WRITING THIS. NORMALLY, CRESCENT MOON LET’S ME POSSESS HER BODY OFF AND ON SO WE CAN WRITE JOURNAL ENTRIES TOGETHER. BUT I HAD TO WAIT FOR HER TO FALL ASLEEP FOR THE NIGHT FOR ME TO WRITE THIS PARTICULAR ENTRY, UNDISTURBED. I’M PUTTING THIS IS IN THE JOURNAL FOR SAFEKEEPING, IN CASE SOMETHING HAPPENS TO US IN THE VERY WORST OF SCENARIOS! BUT IT IS NOT FOR MORTAL EYES! AND BY “MORTAL EYES” I JUST MEAN KAYLA. THE REST OF YOU CAN GO TRAUMATIZE YOURSELVES FOR ALL I CARE! HA HA HA HA HA HA! BUT SERIOUSLY… PROCEED
WITH CAUTION… IN THESE PAGES LIES A SECRET SO HORRIFYING THAT EVEN I’VE BEEN SCARRED! THAT’S RIGHT- ME! AND I’M HARDLY SCARED OF ANYTHING ON MOST DAYS! BY THE WAY, THIS LOCK IS “KAYLA-PROOF.” YOU’RE NOT GETTING IN, MY WIFE! NO! DANGER! FORBIDDEN! DO NOT OPEN! NO! STOP!
SINCE WE’VE BEEN TOGETHER, I’VE ALWAYS TOLD CRESCENT MOON THAT MY GREATEST WORST ENEMY IS TIME BABY. BUT THE DARK TRUTH IS THAT COULDN’T BE FARTHER FROM THE TRUTH! MY ACTUAL WORST ENEMY IS AN ENTITY THAT IS SO HORRIFIC AND SO DANGEROUS, I HAVE RESORTED TO HIDING EVERYTHING FROM KAYLA! WE GO WAY, WAY BACK! EVEN MORE SO THAN HOW ANCIENT MY RIVALRY WITH TIME BABY IS. AND THE THING IS… UNLIKE MY OTHER GREATEST FOES, THE GREAT DARK ONE IS NO LAUGHING MATTER! WITH HIM, THERE’S NO ROOM FOR MAKING SARCASTIC COMMENTS OR BRINGING KAYLA WITH ME ON A CRIMINAL ESCAPADE TO DRAW OVER
POSTERS OF TIME BABY TO MAKE HIM LOOK EVEN UGLIER THAN NORMAL. RATHER- IT’S TAKEN ME A LIFETIME (about 1 trillion years!) TO PUSH BACK MY TRAUMATIC MEMORIES FROM WHEN… HE HAD……………. - Nevermind… It’s really hard for me to even think of it again… BUT THOSE MEMORIES OF ALL I FELT ARE MOSTLY FORGOTTEN NOW… UNTIL THAT IS- THE “GOD OF ORDER,” THE ORACLE, FOR WHATEVER REASON THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO SAY HIS NAME… AND BRING IT ALLLLLL BACK!!! UGH! SHE TOLD ME THAT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I HAVE TO DO IS TELL KAYLA ALL ABOUT MY HORRID ENEMY AND ALL ABOUT MY
PAST LIFE; BUT WHAT THE ORACLE DOES NOT REALIZE IS HOW BAD HE ACTUALLY IS! THE ORACLE HAS NEVER EXPERIENCED THE DARK SERPENT’S POWERS IN A CONCENTRATED FORM, BUT I HAVE! AT A DISTANCE, THE SERPENT’S POWERS ARE DISTRESSING, SCARY, AND WEIGH HEAVILY ON ONE’S MIND! BUT TO ENCOUNTER THIS ABOMINATION IN PERSON WOULD CAUSE IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE TO THE BRAIN AND PSYCHE; THAT OF WHICH HAUNTS A SOUL FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY!!! THE BEING WHOM I’LL SPEAK OF IS NO ORDINARY MONSTER! THE DARK SERPENT IS MOST OFTEN REFERRED TO AS THE “ANTI-AXOLOTL.” THE POLAR, 180’, OPPOSITE
FORCE TO “LUX BONUM'' - (the most righteous and benevolent creature of the multiverse. The symbol of all that is good…) BUT THE MOST EVIL AND VIOLENT CREATURE OF ALL THAT EVER EXISTED - His name is… “TENEBRIS MALUM.” - His fingertips indefinitely drip with blood. Do not touch it! His blood is said to burn skin and kill vegetation! - Stay clear! Those aren’t frills; they’re NERVES!!! And they’re always bleeding. WHATEVER YOU DO- *NEVER MAKE EYE CONTACT with him!!! *ONCE YOU STARE… THE STARE CANNOT BE BROKEN!
NOT JUST THE MOST EVIL BEING, TENEBRIS MALUM IS ALSO THE SCARIEST BEING EVER- LITERALLY!!! LITERALLY, AS IN, HE IS KNOWN FOR HIS FEAR AUGMENTATION POWERS. WHAT WOULD’VE OTHERWISE STARTLED SOMEONE FOR A BIT, TENEBRIS CAN TURN INTO A HEART ATTACK!! ALTHOUGH I WON’T GO INTO DETAILS ABOUT MY PERSONAL LIFE- THIS COULD POSSIBLY HELP OTHERS IF THEY WERE EVER SO UNFORTUNATE AS TO BE A TARGET OF HIM! SYMPTOMS: (HOW TO KNOW IF SOMEBODY IS UNDER DIRECT ATTACK!)
1. Dilated pupils - the look of abject horror and complete shock! Normal eyes Dilated Eyes (Extra wrinkles indicate stress) 2. UNINTELLIGIBLE, Scrambled speech: If your friend looks traumatized and the only thing they can say is “…. “ chances are they’re under the direct influence of Tenebris! [TIP: Never “google” or repeat out loud the unintelligible jargon of Tenebris Malum or anyone he takes possession of! The results aren’t so pretty…] 3. THEY START SPEAKING POETICALLY: There was this one bone-chilling true story which got passed around centuries ago. It was of a villager of a small forest community which woke everyone up in the middle of the night with his screaming. They thought
he must have fallen into a chasm and broken his bones, or been attacked by a wild animal. But when they found him: he was violently shaking and appeared to be in a trance-like state. It took them minutes just to get him to stop. But when he spoke again, it was only this one eerie sentence: [“ONCE YOU SEE THROUGH THE DARK SERPENT’S EYES, YOU WON’T WANT TO SEE AGAIN!”] He was pronounced dead before sunrise. 4. Inability to look away! - ONCE YOU MAKE EYE-CONTACT, YOUR EYES ARE BASICALLY GLUED OPEN! NEVER LOOK!!! HIDING PLACES: AVOID AT ALL COSTS!!!
1. The Deep Web 2. Vicious and/or diseased animals (in some cases) 3. Ouija Boards and other evil rituals (DUH!) 4. FURBIES! (also, neglected porcelain dolls) 5. VHS Tapes that may have been tampered with 6. Haunted game cartridges or home decor from a garage sale 7. “Wouldn’t Cucumber-Flavored Beer Be Nice to Drink?!” (music video) NITORI’S GONE MAD!!! 8. Psychedelic Drugs (NOT S+P APPROVED!) *** I MEAN - BASICALLY - JUST BE AWARE OF YOUR SURROUNDINGS! IF YOU GET AN EXTREMELY RANDOM, BAD, TERRIFYING FEELING- JUST BE ALERT! YOU KNOW??!! ~ Anyway… IT WAS ONLY VERY RECENTLY
THAT I HAD A BIZARRE REALIZATION REGARDING SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS YEARS AGO! BUT THE THING THAT MADE ME REALIZE THIS- IS THE TIME WHEN FIDDLEFORD MCGUCKET FOUND OUT I WAS “SICK” AND CAME OVER TO MINE AND KAYLA’S NIGHTMARE MANSION TO GIVE ME A GIFT. AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS A GOOD GUY AT THIS TIME, I STILL COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHY HE FORGAVE ME, SO EASILY AND WASN’T FAZED BY MY PRESENCE AT ALL! - BECAUSE OVER 30 YEARS AGO, WHEN MCGUCKET JOINED FORCES WITH STANFORD PINES TO WORK ON THE PORTAL, FIDDLEFORD MISTAKENLY GOT A GLIMPSE OF MY TRUE FORM WHEN HE TRIPPED AND FELL INSIDE (I HAD REMOVED MY EXOSKELETON TO FEED). AT THE TIME, I FIGURED THE EVENTS TO FOLLOW IN HIS LIFE- WHEN HE ERASED HIS MEMORY UNTIL LOSING HIS MIND; HAD HAPPENED BECAUSE OF THE WAY I NATURALLY LOOKED. BUT WHEN I REFLECT ON WHAT HAPPENED SINCE MCGUCKET SO HAPPILY CAME TO VISIT ME, I REALIZED WHAT HAD ACTUALLY SCARED MCGUCKET SO INTENSELY… It wasn’t this, alone!... (CAN’T A DEMON JUST ENJOY HIS MEAN, IN PEACE?!) !!??!!!! AAAAAHHH!!
I WAS A PUPPET!!! WELL… TO BE MORE CLEAR- NOT EXACTLY LIKE A PUPPET! FROM THE VERY BEGINNING I WAS MEANING TO USE FORD TO DO MY BIDDING. I ONLY SO HAPPENED TO ENCOUNTER MCGUCKET AT THE MOST UNEXPECTED TIME! AND BEING THE SELFISH JERK I WAS AT THE TIME (as much as I hate to admit it…) OF COURSE I THOUGHT A BIT TOO HIGHLY
OF MYSELF AND JUST ASSUMED I WAS SCARY ENOUGH TO INSTILL THAT LEVEL OF FEAR IN SOMEONE. BUT AS IT TURNS OUT - I’M HARDLY TERRIFYING ON MY OWN! AND IT WAS TENEBRIS MALUM WHO “HELPED ME,” BY CHANNELING RAW, UNBRIDLED FEAR THROUGH MY VESSEL! - LEADING TO EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED THEREAFTER… [He set the wheels in motion… And I let it happen… THIS IS ALL MY FAULT! (Wr wklqn L frxog’yh hyhu wuxvwhg klp …)
I KNOW THERE’S A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO WON’T BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THIS, BUT I WOULD SACRIFICE EVERYTHING I HAVE, JUST TO PROTECT KAYLA FROM THAT MONSTER!!! HECK, I’D RIP HER EYEBALLS OUT IF I HAD TO! I’D KILL HER EVEN! Wait- no! No, No, No, No, NO!!! STOP IT!!! WHY CAN’T I CROSS IT OUT??!!! HOW COULD I SAY SUCH A THING??!!! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!!! WHERE IS THIS HORRID INSANITY COMING FROM?!!!
Guess who it is? … It is a “pleasure” to meet you again, Bill NeverDe Cipher. I am back for a moment to remind you that I won’t stop until she suffers the very same things that you have endured. And you know EXACTLY what things I am talking about. When I make you watch every second of her excruciating, psychological torture- You will have nobody to blame but yourself! THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS TO PUPPETS WHO CUT OFF THEIR STRINGS! Think you can go running off with some kind-heart and let her mend every last part of you that I have worked so hard to ruin? You have always been my prized puppet, Bill Cipher. And you always WILL be! You cannot change your destiny now; It’s too late! You cannot escape the life I have set in stone for you. You are the most nefarious being that ever was, and ever will be! You will rule countless dimensions with an iron fist and a thirst for blood. YOU DARE DISOBEY ME? Think you can just go around playing “Hero” now? Well you can’t; So give - it - up! And your wife is just as clueless and naive as you are! To ever be willing to give YOU of all people a second chance? You only won her heart, because of the simple fact that her will can be bent with the slightest touch. She’s just as insane as you are, Bill! Both of you mean less than nothing to me! And do you want to know what my favorite thing is? I enjoy the sight of you constantly fighting for your life and for your mind… Doing whatever it takes to get your “good” heart back - To feel happiness again and “true love.” … Only to have it stripped away in the cruelest manner imaginable! You are in denial, Bill Cipher. I can see right through your lies! Your true nature WILL resurface and I will make sure of it. And you WILL hurt the very ones you love the most… Only having yourself to thank for it! ALL because of that “fateful” day when you so eagerly made that DEAL with me… It will be a delight for me to watch you break Kayla’s heart over and over again! The joy I will feel after seeing you and your entire family pay for everything you’ve done to defy me- will be ENDLESS. Until we meet again… PUPPET